Dear Woman Beater
Today your little girl learnt to pray. She is a bright and starry eyed little girl. All of 3 years old she is praying that God save her mom from your cruelty. She heard in sunday school that God can save you from pain. 'God help my mommy to be good so that daddy doesnt have to punish her until she bleeds'. She repeats those words like a chorus to a nursery rhyme until the meaning has faded and it becomes just another song. She falls asleep too scared to cry, just in case her whimpering further infuriates you. Today your little girl learnt that its possible to consumed by fear and rage all at the same time.
You see, fear and rage will be the ones to govern her relations from now on. FEAR AND RAGE. She commits to memory the look of terror in her mommy's face. When her eyes connect with her mom's, whilst you are planting permanent scars on her body, this girl child now owns this pain. Yes, now your little girl connects with every punch from your over-sized fists and every kick from your sharp BEE shoes. When her beautiful brown eyes meet yours, she is tormented as she no longer sees her daddy but an enraged and wild animal, similarly she now owns your rage as she does her mom's fear.
Later on in life she will look for a man who has that same under-tone of rage and insecurity in his eyes. She will look for a 'daddy' in random chaps with child-hood baggage of their own. Your little girl will find that inner-rage irresistable and charming. Your baby will confuse love for rage.
The day you visit her in hospital after her boyfriend has beaten her to an inch of her life. You need not wonder or question where her self-esteem has gone to. You took it with you, you put bit sized chunks of it in the rubbish bin with bloodied tissues from her mom's nose.
You're and educated man right? So if you've heard of battered woman syndrome right? She stays and later marries that very same man. She will raise your grand-kids with that syndrome and transfer that 'fear and rage' in them. Why wouldnt she? She was raised the same way. They too will get beaten up by the likes of you, a man who can not control his emotions and shows his masculinity through violence. I know that as you read this, you think back to your childhood home and how your dad's violence towards your mom. Its no excuse brother, you knew then it was wrong and you know it damn well now.
One day as you kneel at your daughter's grave, trying to forget her cruel death at the hands of a heartless man. Remember she started dying the day you put your hands on her mom. Dare not cry, you are an accomplice in this. Its time you learn how to pray.
Regards,
Today your little girl learnt to pray. She is a bright and starry eyed little girl. All of 3 years old she is praying that God save her mom from your cruelty. She heard in sunday school that God can save you from pain. 'God help my mommy to be good so that daddy doesnt have to punish her until she bleeds'. She repeats those words like a chorus to a nursery rhyme until the meaning has faded and it becomes just another song. She falls asleep too scared to cry, just in case her whimpering further infuriates you. Today your little girl learnt that its possible to consumed by fear and rage all at the same time.
You see, fear and rage will be the ones to govern her relations from now on. FEAR AND RAGE. She commits to memory the look of terror in her mommy's face. When her eyes connect with her mom's, whilst you are planting permanent scars on her body, this girl child now owns this pain. Yes, now your little girl connects with every punch from your over-sized fists and every kick from your sharp BEE shoes. When her beautiful brown eyes meet yours, she is tormented as she no longer sees her daddy but an enraged and wild animal, similarly she now owns your rage as she does her mom's fear.
Later on in life she will look for a man who has that same under-tone of rage and insecurity in his eyes. She will look for a 'daddy' in random chaps with child-hood baggage of their own. Your little girl will find that inner-rage irresistable and charming. Your baby will confuse love for rage.
The day you visit her in hospital after her boyfriend has beaten her to an inch of her life. You need not wonder or question where her self-esteem has gone to. You took it with you, you put bit sized chunks of it in the rubbish bin with bloodied tissues from her mom's nose.
You're and educated man right? So if you've heard of battered woman syndrome right? She stays and later marries that very same man. She will raise your grand-kids with that syndrome and transfer that 'fear and rage' in them. Why wouldnt she? She was raised the same way. They too will get beaten up by the likes of you, a man who can not control his emotions and shows his masculinity through violence. I know that as you read this, you think back to your childhood home and how your dad's violence towards your mom. Its no excuse brother, you knew then it was wrong and you know it damn well now.
One day as you kneel at your daughter's grave, trying to forget her cruel death at the hands of a heartless man. Remember she started dying the day you put your hands on her mom. Dare not cry, you are an accomplice in this. Its time you learn how to pray.
Regards,
